Father's Day

It's a difficult week for us this year, as I'm sure it will be from now on, but this will be the first year without daddy.  Last year we took him to Hume Lake,momma, me, kids, Badoll & Chris and the kids.  We wanted it to be somewhere nice instead of the basic backyard bbq.  Instead, we took the BBQ to the lake with all the fixings.  Badoll took a hammock which was perfect because as soon as we got there it was set-up, daddy wrapped himself in the blanket, covered his head with a straw haw and went to sleep.  By this time he was having chemo every week and his body along with all the side effects, had lost all resistance to the cold.  Plus last year was colder than it usually is in June.  Although he slept most of the time it was a good day filled with fun for the kids (they got into the lake) and lots of good food to enjoy.  Daddy actually got up and ate and went back to sleep, every once in awhile he would wave his hat around to let us know he was okay.  He was happy and comfortable there and we were all relaxed. 

This year it will definitely be different without him but as the old saying goes, "life goes on" even though it's changed it still goes on.  We all miss you daddy and loved you and still wish things were different but as you told us that last day, "don't worry, your okay."